An Echo of my Heart

April 23rd, 2008 1 Comment

This is an absolutely incredible interview with Rick Warren, author of A Purpose Driven Life and pastor of Saddleback Church in California. I echo many of his thoughts having personally gone through much the same situation he has/is. I encourage you to read this interview and take to heart what he says. You can also find my personal testimony in the links above and see how this experience has effected life and how God has shaped my life before, during, and after the cancer.

In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:

People ask me, what is the purpose of life? And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were not made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven. One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body—but not the end of me. I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act—the dress rehearsal. God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity. We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, life isn’t going to make sense. Life is a series of problems: Either you’re in one now, you’re just coming out of one, or you’re getting ready to go into another one. The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort. God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy. We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that’s not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.

This past year has been the greatest year of my life, but also the toughest with my wife, Kay, being diagnosed cancer. I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don’t believe that anymore. Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it’s kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life. No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for. You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems. If you focus on your problems, you’re going into self-centeredness, which is my problem, my issues, my pain. But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others. We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easy for her. It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her a testimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people. You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life.

Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy. It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don’t think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease. So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72. First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases. Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church. Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call ‘The Peace Plan’ to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation. Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free. We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity? Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God’s purposes (for my life)?

When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don’t get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn’t put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He’s more interested in what I am than what I do. That’s why we’re called human beings, not human doings.

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.

In Memory of Jeannie

February 25th, 2008 No Comments

To the family and Friends of Jeannie,
  I am planning on making a shirt in memory of Jeannie for Relay for Life in Angleton on April 4th. The shirts will be green, have a grey ribbon(brain cancer awareness) and say “I walk in memory of Jeannie”. The shirts will be $12 each and a portion of that will go toward the American Cancer Society. To order a shirt please send the size and the money to me before March 5th. I will be handing out the shirts at Relay for Life on April 4th. If you have any other questions please feel free to contact me by email. Please pass this email along to anyone that may be interested.

*You don’ t have to walk to order a shirt.*
 
Send the orders to:
Brittany Tanner
SFASU Box 7834
Nacogdoches, TX 75962
 
Thanks for your support,
 Brittany Tanner

Last Thursday night (Feb. 7), the UNT Wind Symphony performed its first concert of the semester. One of the pieces performed that night was a Concerto for Flute and Wind Orchestra by Mike Mower, performed by the Associate Professor of Flute, Terri Sundberg. Dr. Sundberg (and the Wind Symphony) performed the piece in memory of Jeannie. They also announced the establishment of the Jeannie Tillman Music Education Scholarship. There was also a short biography printed in the program:

Jeannie Katherine Tillman became God’s heavenly angel on Friday, January 18, 2008. Jeannie courageously and graciously fought a difficult battle against cancer for more than two years. She lived life as though every minute was precious and she saw only good in all things and in all people around her.

Jeannie lived more in 21 years than most people do in a lifetime. She grew up in Rockport and West Columbia, TX, and attencded Columbia High School, where she played the flute and twirled in the marching band. She auditioned and was accepted in the College of Music at the University of North Texas, where she quickly warmed her way into the hearts of the North Texas family. The fall semester of her sophomore year, Jeannie was diagnosed with aggressive cancer, glioblastoma multiforme (GBM). Throughtout the fight, she continued to attend classes and live life to the fullest. She was a member of Sigma Alpha Iota, the music fraternity for women, a member of the UNT Green Brigade Marching Band and the Concert Band, and tech team member for CollegeLife, the college ministry of Denton Bible Church.

In an interview with the NT Daily, Jason Schloesser, Jeannie’s boyfriend, gave a lovely tribute to her, saying, “she repeated her favorite Bible passage like a mantra, ‘be joyful, always.’ and that’s how she lived her life.”

That’s how Terri Sundberg and the Wind Symphony will play this evening, joyfully, in remembrance of Jeannie.

The Jeannie Tillman Music Education Scholarship has been established at the University of North Texas in honor of Jeannie, who, as a musician and student at the College of Music, had a significant and positive impact at the University of North Texas, and in support of students enrolled in Music Education at the University.

Donations: (monetary or check to Jeannie Tillman Scholarship Fund) Please send to:

Elida Tamez, Director of Development
University of North Texas College of Music
PO Box 311367
Denton, TX 76203
940-565-2243

**In order to permanently establish this scholarship at UNT, $25,000 must be raised in the next five years.

Obituaries

January 23rd, 2008 No Comments

Brazoria (The Facts) Newspaper:

http://thefacts.com/story.lasso?ewcd=235f50fe12868935

UNT (North Texas Daily) Newspaper:

http://media.www.ntdaily.com/media/storage/paper877/news/2008/01/23/
News/Music.Student.Loses.Battle.With.Cancer-3163243.shtml

A Change

January 20th, 2008 2 Comments

Hello all, I need to notify evryone of a change. If you would like to donate money for Jeannies Memorial Fund, Please make the check out to St. Mary’s episcopal Church and write in the Memo that it is for Jeannie.

Also, if you need help with directions, the address is as follows.

201 E. Clay, West Columbia, Tx

More as I know it, Jason

Donations

January 20th, 2008 No Comments

Ok, we we have things figured out. We have set up a memorial fund that will help students go to Jeannie’s favorite summer camp, Camp Allen. To donate send money to:

Jeannie Tillman Memorial Scholarship Fund
P. O. Box 786
West Columbia, TX 77486

Please make checks out to “*St. Mary’s Episcopal Church*.”

More Later,
Jason

Neighborhoods

January 19th, 2008 No Comments

This is a song by Big Daddy Weave that Jeannie wanted everyone to hear after she died. It is a great song with a great message about the death of someone who knows Jesus as their savior. It is a message she wanted you to know when she died so please follow along:

Also, many have asked about donating money instead of sending flowers. I would like you to know that we are working on that and I will let you know when we get things finalized.

 

Listen to the WMA Format
Listen to the MP3 Format

Neighborhoods

Hanging by a thread
From the tree of this life
I’ve been spinning
round and round and round
Inside my flesh cocoon
An old beat up Pinto
might be what I drive for now
But I’ll be driving a Cadillac soon

Cause you know one day I will fly
To my mansion in the sky
And I’ll have no regrets
when I leave this place for good
When I say my last farewell
oh, please don’t forget to tell them
That I’m not really dead
I’m just changing neighborhoods

 

Living in this place
that is only temporary
I said that this old world
is in the process of slipping away
Though I have such a future
I’ve got to be wary
That my bright tomorrow doesn’t blind me
to what God has for me today

 

Cause you know one day I will fly
To my mansion in the sky
And I’ll have no regrets
when I leave this place for good
When I say my last farewell
oh, please don’t forget to tell them
That I’m not really dead
I’m just changing neighborhoods

 

Cause you know one day I will fly
To my mansion in the sky
And I’ll have no regrets
when I leave this place for good
When I say my last farewell
oh, please don’t forget to tell them
That I’m not really dead
I’m just changing neighborhoods

The Visitation

January 18th, 2008 4 Comments

We are also having a visitation on Sunday between 3 and 6. The visitation will be at Bakers Funeral Home in West Columbia. Again, should anyone need somewhere to stay, please contact my mom, Brenda, ASAP and let her know. We have plenty of room so don’t let that be an issue. 281-538-1514 (home) or 823-428-5655 (cell). If you would rather stay at a hotel or something closer than League City, please call 979-299-8883 and ask for Mandy and mention that it is for Jeannie (it will be about $50 a night).

634 S. Columbia Dr.
West Columbia, Tx 77486

More as it develops,
Jason

*and a correction, we are not having a memorial service, just a normal one. I didn’t know there was a difference…

The Final Passing

January 18th, 2008 13 Comments

Well, it is that time. I am not sure the best way to put this into words, so I just will. Jeannie passed away this morning (Friday) around 10. For all who would like to come pay their respects, the service is going to be held Monday at 2 here in West Columbia. It will be at St. Mary’s Episcopal Church which is located at 16th and Clay St. in West Columbia, Tx 77486. For more information, you can visit their website: http://www.stmaryswestcolumbia.org/

If you are wanting to come, but need a place to stay, please contact Brenda (my mom), she can help you out: 281-538-1514.

All for now,

Jason

Disappointing News

January 18th, 2008 No Comments

So I talked to Cookie yesterday, and she told me that Jeannie had been having a seizure since about 10:30; it was around 3:00 in the afternoon. The nurses had done everything they could to stop it, giving her shots and things. But they only seemed to help, not truly stopping the seizure. I will let you know more as I know it.
Jason